Those thoughts I usually keep at the back of my mind are crawling forward, slowly taking over.

You notice me and start walking over. As cliché as it sounds, my heart skips a beat. My lips curl into a smile and I lower my head. My cheeks flush ever so slightly. Dear, do you even notice what you are doing to me?

Trying to stay optimistic all the time is exhausting.

I just wish I had someone around, not as a friend, but as more. Just so I could sharing a bit of the burden so it’s all easier to deal with.

Last week was a rough week for me, to say the least. I just felt as though it was all piling up on me, to the point where it was suffocating me. It was too much for me to deal with.

Finally turning 18 tomorrow.

Seriously, the only three things I want are cake, food and a balloon. Mainly cake.

How many more fee status applications am I going to have to fill out?

My birthday’s next week.

Honestly, next time think before you act. Stop being such a fucking asshole.

Things to do today:

• bake cookies
• wrap secret Santa gift
• Psychology essay
• Stats homework
• Spanish essay
• Babysitting
• bake a cake
• make lunch/dinner

I don’t like to make direct eye contact with people because I know my eyes can be extremely expressive.

• Friend: I want to see your bootiful face when you have tears in your eyes and a runny nose with boogers
• Friend: Yum.
• Friend: Skype me man
• Friend: Ah shit I banged my knee and it sounds like I'm having an orgasm. Hurry up man.

It’s just safer to make myself seem emotionally distant. This way you aren’t at the receiving end of all my conflicting emotions.